Pregnancy has always been a roller coaster of sorts. Being on my 2nd run, I can confidently say that no two pregnancies are alike. Some new things have popped up in terms of health, emotional and circumstantial (long story).
During the first time with Dani it was like being pushed into a dark room without any warning. But I was blessed to have some people who became my blessings during the time. Even more so now. I have more people to go to for inspiration and guidance. People who urge me to be a better persona over all. Its thrilling and the lessons keep on coming each day. Its amazing! Talk about the buddy system on steroids!
This second time around, I haven't really had the down time to really think deeply and absorb the whole process. Danielle has been keeping me very occupied. But I think that is a good thing. Teaches me balance and better time management. I had all the time in the world the first time to try weird or kooky ideas. Some people definitely go overboard. This time around I'm more realistic and wiser. Thank God!
Changing my OBGYN last minute was also a big step. But these are the times when we have to listen to our gut. God has His ways. Prayed and reflected about it and I am happy with how things have turned out. Not only do you want a doctor who is competent and wise but also emotionally supporting. What good is it to have a wonderful doctor who sees you as an extra paycheck in her bank account? Rushing through everything and giving you anything. One who is accommodating with the questions running through my mind and patient enough to know its just my nerves getting in the way from time to time.
Danielle has become more affectionate. A bit attached to me, which is how I would like it to be anyway. But she does need to learn to control her emotions. She is as impatient as I was during the time, unfortunately. Her temper gets the best of her, too. She has to grow up a bit faster now. When this new baby comes out, our lives are going to change in more ways than one and the world won't be revolving around her as more.
Its amazing how God expands the love that is within when this time comes. I used to think the heart as a whole that is as big as it already is. The more people come into our lives, the divisions get easily distributed somewhat, trying to make room for more. But I guess God uses the moments in our lives to make our love stronger. Develop more muscle so the bigger it gets. The bigger it becomes, the more there is for new beginnings in life. Our love for Danielle will never depreciate. This new baby will have new room in our love. Its amazingly profound.
Our midwife recently informed me that she plans to take her leave soon. So that is a new speed bump that we didn't expect. She has been with me from day -1. Then again, thats how life is. Some people come and go. Its not always a permanent goodbye, but we must be on our different ways. God will provide as He provided for us then. So I choose not to be fearful and approach this with a steady heart and mind.
As I wake up each morning with Bryan and Dani by my side, that is all of God's wonderful best in my life in one bed. I am very blessed.
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